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I am so tired today!! I run a very hectic schedule, and to be honest today I really feel like I must put my hands up and surrender. I am married with two beutiful kids. I have a son who is fourteen years old and a daughter who is two years old. My family life is beautiful. I love it but it is also very demanding. I feel as I am always on the run and watching the time very closely or I would be late to some appointment. I know there are many of you that are on the same boat except that there are a couple of other things I attend to. I take care of both my parents who are very ill, and going thru so many medical problems. Let me start with my father who has been on life support for the last six months. Although he health has gotten a little better he depends on a machine in order to survive. My mother on the other hand is a dyalisis patient. She gets dyalisis three times a week and everyday is a fight for survival. She has lost her eye sight and can no longer walk. It is so hard to see people who you love so much cripple that way. So for the last ten years of my life I have been through a roller coster and it seems harder and harder to hold on tight. To be honest I am scare of the unknown and the fact that both my parents will not be around for much longer. That is why today I am so tired I just need a moment to recover and continue running around.

Yesterday when the earthquake hit I was alone at the office I work.  The building I work at is an eight story building the movement was horrible.  I am lucky to work on the second floor but it still felt horrible.  I panic and for one moment forgot what to do in case of an earthquake!  I wanted to run out and scream but I am happy to say that I kept my cool.  Instead of going wild I stood under the door way and prayed.  Although I lived all my life in Souther California I will never get use to earthquakes.  After a while I am still not back to normal my head feels like it shut down.  The only thing going thru my mind is will it happen again today or tomorrow.  I guess is up to nature and just have to accept it for earthquakes will not go away.  I am glad that nothing major happen and that everyone is doing fine.  A couple of things did fell out the shelves at some homes but no lives have been lost.”yuppie” lets celebrate.

I do not understand why fruit does not appeal to me?  When I go  to the grocery store I go with me best intention to buy something healthy, but as soon as I see the bakery my eyes go wild.  I eat before I go to the store, but I always find a reason why I should buy a piece of bread.  My number one excuse is always I am buying it, but is not for me to eat but for my family.  I have read so many books and have gone online looking for a solution to my bread addiction.  I swear this a problem for me at least.  I feel as if everything I eat contains carbs.  Is there a way I could eat bread but try moderate my intake?  I really need some help, I wish there was a pill that could take away the need to eat bread.  I would buy definitely buy it.

I find this funny although I feel bad for my friend.  When she became pregnant she was glowing with happiness, and after she was informed she would be having a girl she couldn’t be more happier.  From the day she learned it was a girl she began buying pink clothes, and every girly thing she could find.  So I ask her what would happen if the doctors were wrong. She said, no way I am four months pregnant they couldn’t of make a mistake.  So she went pink crazy, I have a daughter so I know how it is especially her first baby.  Well nine months passed and a few days ago my friend gave birth to a beautiful baby “BOY”.  Her husband was so surprise to see the baby and then to find out the baby was a “BOY”.   Throughout the pregnancy he didn’t say much about wanting a baby boy.  So he was just happy to have a healthy baby.  My friend says she is happy, but she needs to purchase new clothes  for the baby.  Since everything she bought was all a baby girl.  I told her to return the items, but she throw away all the receipts!

After so many things going wrong in my life, I am happy to report that my daughter who recently turn two years old is potty trained!!!!  My husband a home stay dad who I should say not by choice.  Due to an injury from work has forced him to stay home and raise our daughter.  Anyways he took the job of training our baby girl.  I am verry happy although I do feel as I am missing a lot by not being the one teaching her.  I  do work full time so maybe I should feel like a bad mom after all.  I should just relax a little, and take some time for daughter and mommy time.  My daughter has also learned all of her body parts!!  I am so happy and feel bless to have a husband who loves her daughter so much.  He has so much patients and takes time to teach her step by step with such enthusiasim.  I am admire him because I had never seen a dad care so much!!!!

Why is it so hard to accept changes in our life?  I have been beating myself trying to make peace with the changes that will be happening soon. The thought about it thou makes me sick and I am taking it very hard.  I am afraid of the new outcome for my routine will dramaticaly change. First of all I am loosing my job which is hard to even think straight. I have been working for the same company for over fourteen years, and recently I was told I would no longer have a job come September. Because of that I will no longer be able to afford my house payment so that means moving out of town. So I really feel like my whole life will be changing in ways I never thought possible.   One of my problems is that I take everything personal. Maybe I should not  and change my whole thiking to things due happen for a reason and there is something else awaiting for me. I am doing my best to cope with this difficult situation but it is hard!!!!

Jus another day where I get to  listen to  people talk about how they are loosing their homes.  I just don’t seem to feel sorry for them any more because I think those people where unrealistic.  I know from close relatives how they got themselve into that mess.  Before the houses skyrocketted they weren’t even able to ge a car loan.  Later those same people invite me to their house warming party?  What, wait how were they able to qualify for a home loan but not for a car loan?  As of today many of those people have lost their homes because their interes when up.  So then deep in my mind, I think well did you think about it before you purchase the home at 1% rate?  Wheren’t you told how it worked or did you just sign the paperwork thinking it would be like that for ever?  Can some tell me how people assume such things.  I guess I am being a little cold hearted towards them and maybe they were given false information. But come on give me a break, a home purchase should be something that people take very seriously and take it lightly.  Is an investment that could make a difference in a person’s life. So please lets take a second look at every  paper we sign. Lets do our homework right the first time and save some headaches for another day.

I am at awe as I see  the economy go spiral down.  When I turn on the t.v.  and all I see is money problems I am just woundering who is to blame?  I have asked myself this question over and over and I just don’t seem to understand how such a strong nation is now suffering. One of the headlines of the news is that of the real estate problems which seems to me to be a joke.  It was just four years ago that I purchase my house for a fair price or so I believe.  I did not make the mistake to purchase a home beyond my means.  I have always been realistic as to what I could afford to buy.  Today along with many of you out there seat here thinking that my house is not worth what I paid for.  So I am stuck making a payment which  I can barely afford, and is not that my payments have changed.  No, not at all the reason is that everything keeps going up such as fuel, food, and utilities.  I don’t know when this is going to end, but it better be soon as the problems seem to be rising and getting worse.

Hi everyone out there looking for another diet solution such as I seem to do day in and day out.  For as long as I know I have been looking for a diet secret that could help me loose the extra weight that I carry in my small frame of 4 11, but I have not yet succeded with my search.  I have been woundering if there is a true safe way too loose pounds without giving up favorite foods such as sweets and bread.  I have an addiction and to be honest I love it those kinds of foods make me feel forget about problems and it also makes me happy.  About two years I ago I had a baby so I tried to eat as healthy as posible, and I manage to only gain 35 pounds.  After the baby was born, I went on several diet programs, and I am glad to say I lost it all plus more.  My success was a combination of healthy eating such as organic foods, and giving up my favorite breads and candies.  But as I sit here I am dissapointed because I have gain 15 pounds back!! I know the solution to the problem, but I can’t afford organic food  anymore.   Does anyone out there have a solution?  I feel as everything I have ever tried fails to work after a while.  I have tried the cabbage soup, the Atkins, The South Beach Diet, and many other  programs that would be hard to fit them all in this blog.  Maybe I should just forget about my weight, and accept the fact that I will always be a chubby person!!!