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After six days of pure hell, yes its true those days were horrible.  I am happy to annouce that I finally got my pain under control.  I had five visits with my doctor underwent one CT scan, X-rays,Ultrasound,and blood work and I was given tons of medication.  Finally after diagnosing me with shingles the pains were horrendous.  The medication I had been taking was not working so I took some vitamins and natural medicine.  The natural medication did work but the pain was still horrible.  I had visited a private doctor many years ago. I still had his business card luckily he was still in business.  I called him and explained what I was taking and he told me to come in.  I had my brother drive me to his office and after forty-five minutes I felt tha pain dissapear.  I am so happy to have called him.  I went back for a second round of shots and I feel better than ever.  My lesson in my case is that if you don’t look for your own well being no one will do it for you.  I made many calls,wrote many blogs, and asked many questions and I finally got my pain under control.  I am so happy I am ready for school and work.  Thank You GOD

I am so upset I can’t deal with pain.  I mean I don’t mind a little fever here or a runny nose but this pain that I am experiencing right now is too much.  I have done so much research for shingles and I have tried some of them, but the bottom line is that I am still feeling the same.  I am taking so much medicine and the pain does not seem to get better.  The only thing that seems to be working is benadril  which makes me sleepy.  I need some help, does anyone know what to do in such case of shingles.  If there is anyone who has experience such problem please give me some feed back.  I will greatly appreciate all of your help.  This is a long weekend and I am sick that is horrible.  I really need to find a cure I have this weekend to do that.  On Tuesday I will star school and I really am looking forward to begin, but with my condition I don’t think it will be a great idea to show at school.  As far as I know shingles is contegious only if a person has not had chicken pox.  If a person  has had it then I cannot do any harm.  At least that is what I have learned and that is what my doctor said.  So I urged many of you that work so hard and do not take a moment to relax please stop and take a deep breath.  I had no idea of how much I was harming myself until the results that I am now suffering.

Well after a week of pain and suffering I finally get to know what is going on with my body. First of all the doctor did find a little blod clot in my lungs so I am undergoing treatment. The other problems I am having are body pain,bad burning stomach pain, and rashes all over my body. I had been complaining about it since the begining but the doctors could not figue it out. But last night I had to go to the urgent care where they informed me that I have (SHINGLES). What is that? I ask myself how did I get such ugly thing.  Well I asked the doctor a million questions and did my own research and finally understood what causes it.  I am shock to know that stress is one of the major problems. I have never really understood stress.  I had never dealt with or so I thought.  At this moment I can finally feel for people who suffer from that horrible desease.  I don’t ever wish that to any person because stress can make a life so miserable.  I just can believe that this is how my body is reacting to so much that is goind on in my life.  Although I felt okay with my father death now I think I am hiding my pain and I am hurting myself.

My sister-in-law called my husband yesterday and that was a surprice.  First of all she never just calls to say hi or to ask how we are doing? The reason she called was to ask if either my husband or I could  co-sign on her home loan.  My question is, “Is crazy or what”.  We don’t have a close relationship to start with so I find it incrediable that she would ask for us to co-sign.  My husband was clever by giving her an excuse as to why we couldn’d do that but I was kind of upset at him by not telling her the truth.  Instead he told her we did not have any credit and so it would be hard to even consider us as co-signers.  I would have liked if he had said, no we cannot do that and it seems like you only call when you are in need of something.  I am crazy I have to accept that she is his sister and ultimately they are family. But I do not like the fact that she only wants to use us and not have a family relationship. I have always treated his family with respect and would never say bad things about them.  I guess I should be happy my husband got her out of our backs and will not bug us for the time being.

Once again I could not go to work due to my back problems.  I could not sleep at all last night I finally went down and slept on the floor.  I find it comfortable to sleep on the floor for some reason maybe because its a hard surface. Anyways I got up and tried to strech out my back, but it was impossible so I finally took a shower and went to work.  I was late getting to work but my boss already knew my situation.  When I arrived at work I pounder and stayed in my car for a while before proceeding to the office.  My mind was not really there I was missing something.  After being at work for a while the pain was getting really bad and so I had to leave and come home.  I hate being sick and taking days off because of it.  I really do not take days off unless I really need it.  I consider myself very disipline in that way.  My employer has known me because I never call in sick or want to take days off to relax.  Is not that I don’t want to take days off but I really cannot afford to do that.  In the past my employer used to pay me for my vacations and sick days that were not taken.  My luck has run out he no longer provides that benefit due to the economy. 

I went to get some lab exams several of them the results are not in. I am very inpatient I wish results were faster. As I still feel like really sick as if someone had hit me with a baseball bat. As I had mention before I have suffer from blood clots in the past and my doctor said the blood clot could be reoccuring. The first time I had them I did not do much research I just took the medication. Not that I did not care but I could not deal with the problem at the time. As time has gone by I undestand a little bit more about my medical condition. To star with I now have a name which is Pulmonary Embolism. When I first heard it, it just did not register what I had. As I sit here typing I wish this was not happening I feel so alone. Many memories come to my mind. Last time I got sick my father was there for me. He visited me at the hospital and never left my side. After when I was home he took care of me as if I was a baby. He use to take me to my doctors appointments and cooked for me, and to realize he is not here with me makes it even harder. I will never get over this pain because I loved my father so much. Although I have my family I feel as if something is missing. My routine of visiting him at the hospital are gone and I miss those days a lot.

I am having such a horrible day with back pain.  I did not go to work because is was too much.  I am a little afraid because I have suffer from blood clots in my lugs.  I was happy when I was able to dissolve them but it was difficult to do many things.  I felt good but all of the sudden I am short of breath and it hurst to do things such as talk.  Tonight I am going to the hospital and I am hoping for the best.  I really do not want to go because I do not want to know the reality.  So far I have been enjoying my life without blot clots so I find it difficult to find out if they are back again.  I will be gettin in touch with all of you out there and hoping to relate the good news that I really do not have anything.  I will cross my fingers in hope that they tell me is only a back pain and that everything is okay.  Until tomorrow when I hope I will be feeling a hundred percent better.

I was invited to a birthday party.  I had fun with my son and daughter but honestly it was expensive.  My niece paid for everything and used coupons when she paid, but it was still feel it was over price. I am not used to going places like that so maybe it is just me.  I am not cheap believe me but with this economy I have to watch every penny.  For my kids birthday I usually buy them what they need such as clothes and a cake.  We have a little celebration with just the closes family.  I hate expending a fortune on birthday parties.  Besides I feel like the other people enjoy it more than the birthday person.  That is just my thought on that issue.  But after all my kids had a great time playing the games and eating pizza. I just have to get over the fact that everything is expensive.

Well today I visited the dentist, and it was two hours away from my home. I now some of you must think I am nuts for going so far not only that I went to Tijuana. At first the idea seem dum but my brother has been going there for his own treatments. I have the worst teeth ever;although I take good care of them I still manage to get caveties. I have my regular dentist here but he is a little expensive. But he is well worth every penny I have invested. He is really good at what he does and I don’t mind paying for his good work. But in recent weeks well my budget has not been the greatest. So when my brother suggested to go see his doctor I gave in. It was an experience. I had not been there in many,many years. I had a root canal done and a deep cleaning. It only cost me $150 dollars, but I have to go back for the crown. The crown is an additional $190 which is really good compared to the prices here. The only problem I forsee is that I have to go back to T. J. and that is not a pleasant thing to do. I am still thinking about going back. The nighmare crossing back left me thinking if it was worth all the hassle?

I cannot understand why people have to but in when they are not asked for their opinion. Such is the problem I am having with one of my brothers, who has been absent from the family for the last seven years. Now that he is back he wants to make decisions for other people. My mother has lived with me for the last twelve years. In recent years she has lost her eye sight and she no longer can walk due to her medical condition of kidney failure. Two weeks ago my father died, he used to be in charged of my mothers appointments and medical issues. Now since my father is not around the job of doing all of that was left to me. Since there is always paper work to sign I told my mother it would be best if I had a power of attorney from her. She agreed but my brother told her not to do it because I wanted to harm her. I am so upset at him I don’t want to see him at my house. I mean he has never taken care of her and never comes to see her. Who in the world does he think he is? Why does he give his opinion when no one has asked him for it? I just cannot understand how individuals but in without knowing the real issue.