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I seriously need to loose some of  weight.  Since my fathers death I have been over eating and drinking, I have notice a difference in my pants.  They do not fit like they use to and I don’t feel good about myself.  Help!! I need to loose about 20 pounds I am only 4 11′ so being that short 20 pounds looks more like 50 pounds.  I am serious I have contemplating on buying that product called Sensa.  It keeps on poping up on my screen every time I log in to my computer.  The only problem is convincing myself to pay $250… for the miracle product.  I have tempted so many time to order it but when it comes to pay I rapidly change my mind.  I know I can do it on my own but it is so hard.  I really try hard not to eat so much but I love food.  The death of my father has not helped too I have a sadness deep inside me.  I guess is just a matter of time, I will try not to think about my weigh issues any more…

Okay, I have to admitt I have an obsession with dieting!!!Whatever works great one day fails me terribly tomorrow?  This morning I was checking me email and I got a pop-up for weight loss trial with nothing to buy except for shipping and handling. Yes, I felt for that crap!  Anyways I went ahead and place my order understanding there was only a $3.95 fee to pay.  Well, suprise once I finish entering my credit card and pressing done the total was not $3.95 it was more like $12.95 plus and additional $1.00.  At first I thought this is a mistake I better call right now, so after waiting for ten minutes I was told there was nothing they could do??? That it had been my mistake, I must of press the wrong bottom.  Anyways they did not want to take the charge back, so I call up my bank and denied payment to that company.   So I learned my lesson don’t ever fall for such advertisement like I did……..

My Sunday has been ruined because I am feeling so blue. I had the worse sleep my daughter kept on waking me up every hour. She had been sick for a couple of days with fever and both days I got little to no sleep. Last night I was burned out but could not hit the pillow early enough because I had to pick up my son at school. He is in marching band and played yesterday afternoon. I picked him up at almost 11:00 p.m. I honestly felt I was driving while asleep I felt horrible. So when I got home I went straight to bed and then my daughter kept on walking me up!!!!Usually on Sundays I get up fully charged, go to church, and go to the cemetary. But honestly today, I just don’t feel like doing nothing except lay in bed.

I had a great day with my kids I took them to the Anaheim Stadium which had a family day.  After spending a couple of hours, I came home and thats when things went sour.  My husband greeted me when I got home he had made lunch for the kids and me.  He made his famous ceviche which I love to eat a lot.  As we were eating my son came out of the room with his grandmother who is my mother what a huge mistake.  Well my husband does not get alone with my husband and they had their problems in the past.  My mothers big mistake is butting in too much and defending my dumb brothers.  I mean what can I do?  She is my mother and sometimes I do not know what to do.  I hate that I am put in the middle and feel that they are both selfish.  They know it hurts me a lot that they cannot get alone.  At this moment I feel as if it would be better to just get a divorse and continue my life without both of them.  What else is there to do??

So my husband found a job it pays okay but it is far from home. He has suggested we move closer to his job, but my job would be further for me. I told him no that I was not interested in moving any time soon. On the other hand he has been looking at properties on line and they are such a bargain. He leaves the computer on so that when I go online I can see the houses. I am not going to lie the I am tempeted to move, the prices are so good. Although I do feel so bad for the people that have been loosing their properties its horrible. I just put myself in their shoes and I just do not know what I would do. Any ways my husband has actually stop to see some houses and he tells me that they are beatiful. I guess will have to watch the market maybe the houses will go down just a bit more. Then we can actually afford something that will fit our needs because if we buy right know we would be limited on the bedroom space. So it be nice if we could get something bigger for the big family that I have.

One of the classes I am taking is Business English.  Its funny how I thought I knew the basics of the English language.  First of all let me tell you, English is not my first language but I have lived in the United States for a long time so one would think I know all the parts of speech.  To my surprise no I do not know, and I am so confused.  I have a book for the class but really its not helping that much.  I have also gone online to look for other books or help that can help me out.  Let me tell youm it has been as hard to find the help I am looking for.  So for the time being I have to spend hours upon hours to learn and to make myself understand the difference between who and whom.  The singular possesive cases and plural possesive cases, I am sure this is easy for some of you but not for me. 

Today as I was signing in to blog, I notice a blogger complaining about the unwanted comments.  I am also the victim of such horrible and nasty stuff as the blogger writes, it is time consuming.  The times that I have received comments I am happy and look forward to them, but all the sudden I received at least 15 comments a day.  Instead of going over each one, I have now started to delete all of them becuase it is all trash.  How can we avoid such comments?  I have been flagging them as spam but the commens continue to show up on my email.  I honestly do not find them to be in good taste and whoever is sending them I do not appreciate them.  If I want to watch porno I would find it on my own!!!!!

As much as I love school, I have to be honest some classes are just too boring.  I am taking a Monday night class, it starts at 6:30 and is suppose to go until 10:05.  Usually the first day of class there is no assignments or homework, but not in this class.  The whole class was surprise when we were still there at 8:30 p.m.   the first day.  When we asked, the instructor how much longer she was suprise and said, “what do you mean?”  Were like usually instructors gives us the lecture and hands out homework and we go home.  We rarely stay for the whole class because sometimes is just unnecessary to stay; unless of course someone needs help.  So now she lets us go home at 9:30 but still there is nothing much that we are learning.  The whole class almost falls asleep by 8:30 so I am tired as well as my classmates.  We all have a class that starts at 8:00 a.m. and we are just to tired to be there.  We just can wait until the semester is over just to get rid of that boring class!!

I just found out that my boss will co-sign for one of his kids.  I am so suprise to find out because the situation right now is not looking so good.  The ecomony has really hurt our business as many out there have.  I job is on a limbo it is so unstable due to the economy.  People are just not spending money and our business is really feeling the heat. So coming back to my bosses co-signing I am upset.  How can she even consider that at this time when our future is so unknown?  I don’t care that she is her blood, I just know that she cannot afford it right now.  As far as I know she is so spoil and she is so selfish.  As a daughter I would never ask my parents for more than what they can give me.

I love my mother, she is a woman whom I dearly adore.  She can also get on my nerves very easily mainly because she defends my brothers so much.  They don’t show any emotions and can careless about her.  Instead of them calling her, she is the one looking for them.  We disagree so much due to it that is not even worth it talking about it.  In a way my mother likes to bring it up every opportunity she has.  I always wonder why ?  I don’t care what they do and what their needs are.  This morning she told me that I had what I had because of luck.  I could not believe she said that I have work so hard to have what I have.  I don’t know what else to do sometimes I wish she would go live with them intead of bugging me.  Am I selfish or what??