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Yesterday when I was watching the news I saw the couple who were looking for their baby.  I really didn’t know what was going on until I heard that it was all a lie.  It was about this girl who was pregnant and has a miscarriage but fooled people by faking the pregnancy.  I felt so bad for the guy who was lied to.  I don’t know what I would have done if I was in his place.  The girl went to the drama on national television and she new it was all a lie.  What was she thinking?  Did she now better?  I guess not.   I hope she gets punished for having the police focus all the attention to a lie.  I mean there are thousand of other things going on to have the police focus on some fake case.  I wish the guy the best and I hope he moves on.  He looked like he was in so much pain.  I feel sorry for him.

As I have been monitoring the interest rate its come to my mind that I should refinance.  I don’t have a bad interest rate but if I could safe a couple of hundred dollars it would be great.  It seems to me that I still have some equity on my home and I have all it takes to refinance.  The only problem is finding the right bank.  I talk to my present mortgage company but it seems they are too busy to talk to me.  Yesterday I left them a message surprisingly someone did call me back.  In the middle of our conversation the gentlemen who I was talking to told me he had to call me back.  Well he never did and I was kind of disappointed.  I work in customer service and if I say I will call you back I do call just to acknowledge the customer.  I might not have the answers but its nice to call someone back to at least let them know you are searching information.  So any ways I decided to call and find out what was going on.  He was very short and told me he had to call me back again.  Later today he did call me but he sounded so tired and he was no help at all.  So my advice to people who are in customer service if you don’t like to deal with people move on to other positions.  Don’t waste people’s time and yours.

I have been off from work for the last week, and I still have another week to go.  I am loving every minute of the day.  The best part of staying home is enjoying  my two year old daughter.  Although she is a hands full I still like the time at home.  The only thing I can complain about is that time goes too fast.  I feel like I barely woke up and is time to go back to sleep.  I could get use to staying home and be a home mom.  Its not an easy thing to do because there is a lot of work that needs to get done.  But I would still like to stay home while still being able to make some money.  In a way this motivates me to keep on studying so that one day I can work from home.  So until that day comes I have to work really hard.

This weekend as we were all together at my sisters in law home.  My brother got on his knee and propose to his girlfriend.  It was so beautiful I was wishing I was the one getting married?  Not really my life has had its ups and downs but you know what I mean it was so nice.  Of course she said yes and well she has a ring on her finger.  I can believe we almost miss the news.  The plans to drive to my sister’s in law home was cancel but hours later my husband decided to go.  He did ask if I wanted to go and because I didn’t want them to think bad of me I went.  I was so tired the whole time we were up there in Sacramento.  Is not like is that warm where I live.  Well I just wanted to share the joy of the big news.

Well as Christmas came and went I was at all times missing a very important person.  My father who passed away almost five months ago.  Many memories come to my mind and its hard to forget about them.  Every time I go to a place where my father and I use to go its really hard for me.  As time has pass by I thought things would change not that I would forget about my father but that maybe the pain would be less.  I was wrong the pain is still great and no I will never forget about him.  Cleaning out the closets and getting rid of his things has been hard.  I still have my father’s truck I have not been able to put in the market for sale.  I don’t know if I just want to ignore that he is not coming back.  In my mind I just want to know he is just on vacations and that soon he will be back.  I really hope that I can learn to let go of this pain that I carry with me. Some day maybe it won’t hurt as much to think about him.

Well it looks that we have figure who is talking bad about my family.  This person I have admire and had though highly about him.  In a way I saw him as my mentor but no more.  My admiration has turn into hate I don’t like this feeling because I am not the hating type.  So how can I deal with this feeling it is so awkward that its hard for me to describe it.  I have known my brother in law for as long as I been married to my husband.  At the beginning he was married and years later he went through a divorce.  When that occurred I was there for him and honestly I don’t regret it.  In a way it got me back into church and back to my believes.  Ever since he been divorce I have helped with his daughter never have I charged him or asked for something in return.  So to know that my brother in law is talking crap about his own brother really makes me angry.  Why would he?  I guess that makes him feel good about himself, but how sad that the is doing those things.  I just hurts a lot more when you know is your own family who talks crap about you.  How can you deal with such problems?  It  is a big issue, I mean how can you go on pretending nothing is wrong.  When you know that this is happening behing your back.

A few months ago my brother got a ticket for being intoxicated in public.  He was taken to jail until he was sober he was give a ticket.  He was also told the had to see a judge.   During this past months he has been doing great.  I especially like it because he is a great cook.  When I get home from work food is ready I don’t have to ask him to cook.  He loves to come up with different recipes and well I love to taste everything he makes.  This past Monday he was due in court.  I took the morning off just to be there for him to see that I was supporting him.  He seriously thought he would be spending some time in jail.  He was really afraid.  During the time he was sober the would swear he would not drink anymore.  He promised himself that if he did he would be stupid.  He really did not want to spend time in jail.  So when I took him to cour the judge only have him a fine of a couple of hundred dollars and probation.  You would think he would learned but no it was only a matter of days before he started drinking again.  I am so upset that he did not keep his promise.  I know that he hurts everytime he drinks but how can I help him.  I have shown him my support but he is not a baby anymore.  If he doesn’t take care of himself then nobody will.  I have always wondered why people make promises they know they can keep.

Recently my husband was over to see his father.  On that occasion when he came home he seem kind of upset.  When I asked what was wrong he told me his father gave him advice on how to raise his kids.  I could not believe what I was hearing.  For once his father was never aroun.  He abandoned his mother with 13 kids.  How can he give my husband advice?  Who does he think he is?  My husband has been a great father to my kids I have no complains.  I like that he is sweet but yet he can be hard but I find it to be a good thing.  When my 14 year old sons tries to slack from school my husband is there to get him back on track.  Maybe my father in law does not approve of our disciplines but who is he to tell us how to educate our children.  I am kind of upset besides he never visits us or is around us much.  How can he know about our lives when he is always walking away from the family.  I feel he has no right to talk when has never been there for his own kids.

Well as of Saturday my sister in law arrive from Mexico.  I was so exited for her and really wanted to see her.  I was the last one to find out she was coming here and it really did not bother me after all I am just the sister in law.  So as soon as I found out I told my husband to get the barbecue ready so food would be ready when she came.  She land early in the afternoon and so we expected her soon after.  As it turns out we were both wrong my brother in law had taken her to see Hollywood.  Well we were happy in a way but are kind of disappointed that we were not included in his plans.  My husband is so hurt by his brothers actions.  The problem here is that this is not the first time he had done this where he excludes my husband from family outings.  We are good people to him but his action are so stupid.  What can we do he might think that he is doing thing right.  But maybe things would be different if it was the other way around.

It is so exited just to know that Christmas is coming.  This is the time my husband’s family gets together and has a big celebration.  I guess? I always look forward to the delicious food that is prepared.  There is so much food that gets prepared but amazingly the food is gone in a matter of minutes.  Well is to be expected after all there are about forty people who get together.  I love the whole celebration except for one little thing and that is the over drinking.  There are a few family members who do not know how to hold their alcohol and they go over board.  Things have never gotten out of control because we know who to watch out for.  But I mean really if you do know how to hold your alcohol and why even bother drinking.  We have confronted those people when they are sober but they totally ignored their problem.  Besides that the celebration is very nice.